Experiencing several serious relationships in my life I have gained some view on how would I like my relationship to look like – what is necessary, what won’t I be able to stand and what would be amazing to obtain, but I don’t really need it.
I also started to view the whole equality thing in a little bit different light.
I am a part of Millenial generation and it was so weird for me to go out on a date with a guy and let him pay for literally everything, as I didn’t want him to feel like I am a gold digger or that I am using him. Therefore there was always appearing a moment during the date, when I was paying for both of us.
I didn’t mention that the oldest guy I would be dating was 2 years older than me.
My perspective on that point changed recently when I went on a date with somebody 8 years older than me. It was something completly different than what I was experiencing in the past. Besides the fact that I was really feeling, that all of those politic talks are enjoyiable for him and the whole vibe seemed so mature, I also felt like the aging thing matches. He was happy to pay, to take care of me and was so respectfull towards me. He already knew how to behave with a girl. I felt like if I was the most important person in the room for him – he was listening to what I would be telling him ( and I can get really into history, psychology or politics ) , he wouldn’t even look at any other girl. I was feeling the gender difference, whereas with any other guys I was just feeling more like a buddy rather than a woman.
I started to feel really good about it and that this is something I was craving my whole life, but as I was born in 1992 it seemed like an Utopia – everybody heard of it but nobody has experienced.
I started to think that we need the equality but we also need to remember about the tradition. I started to feel that I enjoy being treated like a woman more than a buddy.
Am I getting mature?
I guess so 🙂